I had a dream.

I had a dream.. and in my dream a handsome prince swept me off my
feet. my kingdom is protected by the high walls i have erected to
protect my heart. and he came and he broke them down. he came, he
stole my heart, my soul , my very being.

and we were in love .. one summer . we were as in love as 2 people
could ever be. It was intoxicating, it was unquestioning, it was
transient and it was magical. and i knew that i would look back on
this moment and be grateful that once in my life, i had had such
unbridled love and passion.

so why do i fear? because to fear, is to be human. no one wants a
broken heart. no one wants to pine for ones love. Where is my prince
and will he return to my side before this summer is done? or will he
warm the bed of another? then shall i choose to be in the company
of another man, who is not my prince, but is willing to be by my side?

Whilst my prince has been away, I have been unfaithful. but my heart
is with him. And i pine for his return. my once cold heart is warm
with thoughts of him, and when i kiss another, i think of him. Because
he is the one who has captivated me, my very soul.

Be cold once more and you push me away. lie with another and i will do
the same. hold me closer and i will hold you closer. nothing lasts
forever. but whilst it exists, should it not be like a dream? perfect
in its every being, not tarnished by foreign thoughts, mistrust and
questioning.

You will have her for the rest of your life. so hold on to it. but for
one careless summer, let us rejoice in the decadence that is youth and
irresbonsibility. For if nothing , the memories one holds is precious.
they are the sands of time. give me your youth this summer your love,
your hands to hold, and you will forever more.. have this time to
cherish in your heart.
as will i.